rondom rambling ons lol

as alot of you may have seen i haven't been on much i am very depressed and trying to stay busy in rl as my health seems to be going down i find myself missing my mom more and more she always knew how to make me feel better and i miss my privacy as i am living with my sister i love her to death but even though i have my family and friends i still feel lonley and down. i used to find happiness when working on cars and now i just get annoyed and angry.i have prayed that god just please take me home so that i can find joy again i know he has a plan for me and apparently my work on earth isn't done yet but i can't seen to figure out what i m here for so that i can complete my job here the doctors keep giving me meds but they don't seem to help they just put me to sleep. so i guess i will just have to suck it up. i am open to any suggestions that may help. and i would like to thank everyone for putting up with all of my whining my friends are the bestest muahzzzzz <3 ya