Hello everyone.For starters i'm not good at really writing but i'm going to try lol. this is an intoduction just to let you know a little about me. my name is kandi i am a 37 year old single mom i have two great boys ( well most of the time lol ) i am working my way to being a christian i try but i still have a long ways to go but i have come a long way i used to be a drug dealer and considered a thug and a total bitch, i shot at least 7 people in my life one is paralysed for life its not something i am proud of but i tell you this to show how far i have come i believe in all of my heart that i shouldn't be alive.
before i had my first son around 1995 i tried to go straight i got a real job working for donnellys in 2000 i was diagnosed with cancer and i thought i'm going to die and well thats what i deserved for all of the bs i done in my life until i met this guy that told me about god and i laughed and said god can never forgive all of my sins i think i comitted every one of the 10 commanments and more and that i was going to go straight to hell i fugured that when my time comes god will take 1 look at me,roll his eyes and condemn me to hell after he finishes laughing at me for even attempting to get into heaven.Even after i told this man all of the stuff i had done he proceeded to tell me how god is a forgiving god and that even though i have done all of that stuff he would welcome me with open arms after about three months of him talking to me i finally said i will give it a try so he sat me down and had me say this prayer asking god to come into my heart and i though i don't feel any different. but even though i was going through chemo, was sick and in pain for some strange reason i was feeling happy and grateful for little thing that i never though about before and my mom said thats jesus working on you, and my mom started to pray for me and with me and that made my whole family closer and i though god would never give me the blessings my mom was praying for me but about 8 months later my doctor said that my cancer was in remission, and i remember my mom saying the prayer of a rightgeous man brings great power and wonderful results and said that god has a plan for me even though we don't know what it is just listen to him and you will figure it out.
i'm sorry for rambling on so i guess thats all for now
Sis you've come a long way. Jesus loves each & every one of us. I love you to bits Kandi. Rest all your cares on our Father XxX
ReplyDeleteKandi you are such an amazing person and have come such a long way! I love you. Remember you are never alone.
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One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
...Mary Stevenson